| June started out gorgeously (largely due to the aforementioned Costa Rican Vacation), but ended up with me looking and feeling like a real bitch on TV. My ass got canned after driving over 100 miles on a 12-hour fuck Monday. I was fired for political reasons, naturally. It was no surprise however, my instincts had me looking around and revising my resume weeks ago. I was really sorry I hadn’t beat em to the punch and quit before getting fired, but then I remembered about unemployment.
Our house is bomb.com in the summertime, we spent the Fourth of July on the roof drinking wine and watching 4 different firework shows. It’s also a keen spot for laying out and reading a book, smoking, heckling passersby, and checking out our neighbors backyards. And sure, there were a couple of days of feeling like a fuck-up and mmiserable, but I soon realized that I felt just like a kid on summer break with NOTHING TO DO. I simply could not have asked to be fired at a better time of year, honestly. And life feels better without the commute and being on-call around the clock.
This morning I sat in bed until 11:00am watching episodes of Intervention. I don't know why I love that show, but I do do do. I could watch that, Locked up, and BET all damn day. I have come to find a strange but very strong attraction to Lil Wayne. I’m thinking it must be the hair. He mesmerizes me.
I also feel compelled to encourage you readers out there who like The Mars Volta but haven't listened to their recent Bedlam in Goliath to do so. It is warfare, but it is magical. | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment   |
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So, I'm in Alabama working right now. The birthmother I am working with delivered at her home and drove herself to the hospital with the placenta and umbilcal cord still attached, how crazy is that?! Unfortunately, I am without a rental car due to losing my license and am bored as shit consequently (I should practically get paid for being a fuck-up...). Bored enough, in fact, to be taking long furious walks late at night so I can wear myself out enough to sleep. Everyone is incredibly nice here, though. Even the overweight homeless man who I have seen sitting on the same stump on the same corner for three nights in a row now says "hey pretty lady" without fail every time I pass him. The woman from Leeds that I sat next to on the plane gave me her cell phone # AND her husband's cell phone # in case I get into trouble while I'm here for godssake! Who does that?! I was able to find an IMAX theater not too far from my hotel and saw Sea Monsters this afternoon with a bunch of elementary and junior high aged kids; some little pricks behind me kept throwing their spare change in an attempt to land a pathetic penny or two down my shirt, no doubt. It's ok, I'm sure it was just because they liked me. :) Hah. I ate at The Burly Earl, a deserted bar at 3 in the afternoon, but was fortunate enough to catch some rockin Aretha Franklin tunes. I suppose it's refreshing to do something other than get sauced in Salt Lake, but I am looking forward to going home, goddamit.
Other events I am looking forward to:
1~trip to California next week with my Granny, mum, and sis to see Wicked.
2~Tool concert in November, fuck yes.
3~Cabo cruise in December, FUCK yes. (The trip was a gift from my work to compensate for my shit pay, shit hours, and shit stress, pretty awesome indeed.) | | comments: 2 comments or Leave a comment |
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| Went to Chicago for a week at the beginning of August. Fulfilled my lifelong dream of seeing Pearl Jam. Am currently broke as shit and behind on paperwork, but Eddie Vedder and friends and a vacation from work make it so worth it.
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| I’m currently in Myrtle Beach, South Carolina, in my Holiday Inn hotel room. Having my own hotel room has its perks; I’ve been able to hang out and dance around in my underwear every night thus far, partly because I can, and partly in celebration that my foot is almost completely mobile again! I had two moles removed from it last week and the minor procedure has proven to be quite debilitating. It’s a real bitch when all you want to do is go dancing or for a bike ride in this beautiful weather, believe you me.
I’ve been extremely busy, but pretty goddamned good all the same. I work way too much, but am still very happy with my home, housemates, and friends. I have a shit ton of crazy experiences and have seen some things that I never would have believed 7 or 8 months ago. I certainly feel that that there is a direct correlation between the hours I put in and the chemicals I put in my body. (This reads like a cop-out, and it probably is...) However, while there are more bad days than good, the good days are rewarding enough to keep me fulfilled and satisfied with my work.
As far as my love life is concerned, those who know me know that I have a particularly hard time committing myself to relationships and keeping interest in them in general. At this point in my life however, I am happy to say that I feel I have finally let go of old idealized relationships that have only served to hinder me in finding future loves. I am very happy and content with the love I have found with my current special man friend (though my use of vernacular might be contradictory to my previous statement...really though, I just hate the term "boyfriend"). He is dissimilar from anyone else I have dated or pictured myself with, but the connection is undeniable and something I have not found in other relationships. I am young and in love, and it feels so right this time around. | | comments: 1 comment or Leave a comment |
| playhouses on dead life (haunted life)
broken spirits
just trying to get high
yeah we chose these cards
but the weather changed
and the river froze and went it thawed
it was runnin backwards and dry now
I suppose it's appropriate to cry now
oh wasted time
and naked lies
still get wasted sometimes
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| Soooo. I got 3 days off in the month of February. This same month also included a four day business trip and a couple 65+ hour weeks. This same month I've also been in 3, YES 3!, automobile accidents (not all my fault, course). Anyway, It was this third vehicular accident that really made me lose my shit. Then my stress level really reached capacity. And when the airbags deployed, I mistook the smoke coming from the airbag to be smoke coming from the engine (i.e. I was about to be blown up), and it was all downhill from there. Surprisingly enough, my nervous breakdown wasn't a total bust, as my faith has been restored in the existance of truly friendly, helpful people, and there is a certain Lonnie Anderson that is going to get a thank-you card in the mail. Also, my accident was on the radio AND televised, and that was kind of a cool feeling.
But oh, tonight I get to watch The Science of Sleep and eat peanut butter M&M's and paint my nails. I've been watching a lot of Curb Your Enthusiasm lately too, and I really get a kick out of that Larry David. | | comments: 5 comments or Leave a comment |
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| "If you're a good person, if you've got a good heart, the only thing you need to worry about being is yourself."~Wille Nelson
Also, I seem to be kicking and fist-pumping a lot lately. Especially on the weekends. | | comments: Leave a comment |
| This sad hotel room at the Vagabond Inn in Fresno California makes me feel like the smallest and loneliest person in the world. Strange cities always make me feel this way, but evidently it's much worse when traveling alone.
I have endured more stress these last couple of days than I ever imagined possible. CPS workers, attorneys, two car accidents in a week, and excessive paperwork can make life a real bitch; and to think just a few days ago I was mooning traffic from the second story of The Depot without a care in the world.
Crazy thing is, at the end of the day I can still truthfully say that I love my job and I'll never regret any of my experiences. | | comments: 7 comments or Leave a comment |
| Soooo I lost my phone. It makes me sick to think of all the people I am going to totally lose contact with now. :( If anyone needs to get a hold of me I can be reached on my work phone or by email until I've figured out my new phone situation.
Last week one of my clients rented a limo, bought 5 pizzas, 2 cakes, and threw a party with all the birth moms and staff for me. It was with a stolen credit card, but it was still one of the nicest things anyone has ever done for me on my birthday. Today I watched her get handcuffed and taken to jail, and it made for one tramautic day for me. | | comments: 8 comments or Leave a comment |
| This New Year has got me feeling pretty damn good, I'll be honest. Thank goodness for the shitstorm known as this summer, for without it I would never be able to fully appreciate my current state. My heart's feelin a lot like this: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CI2EivgANdE (Sam Cooke has me by the balls.)
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| | Current Music: | Ryan Adams~Wonderwall | | Time: | 01:13 am | | Current Mood: | you know |
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| Oh its been too many times, and I cant go back
Night bars, guitars, rundown motels like shacks
What it amounts to, don't want it at all
Lost you and I want you today
Misty green and blue
Love to love to love you
Misty green and blue
Love to love to love you
To be something, to be with you
Dont say that youll never know
Love to love to love you
Half the time it could seem funny
The other half is just too sad
This west bound moons they rise and fall
Lost you and I want you today
To be something, to be with you
Dont say that youll never know
Love to love to love you
To be something, to be near you
I dont know where Im goin to
Ive tried and I need you to stay | | comments: 6 comments or Leave a comment |
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http://msnbc.msn.com/id/14674906/?GT1=8506
Steve Irwin's death has depressed the shit out of me. He might've just been the sweetest man on God's green Earth.
I just finished Ash Wednesday by Ethan Hawke, and I gotta say, I am a huge fan of his writing. I was a bit skeptical at first; I didn't see how it was physically possible for one man to be that attractive AND be an awesome actor AND able to write as well...but it seems he is actually the embodiment of all things good. READ IT.
I have been trying to turn my new housemates on to Scrabble, and it has been even more well-received than I had hoped for! After I finished playing Matt for the first time, he asked me if we could play AGAIN. Christy and Ryan have asked me if we could play Scrabble without me even bringing it up! AND, they play it when I'm not even around, too. It is probably inconceivable to most just how happy this makes me. | | comments: 11 comments or Leave a comment |
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Had to find some higher ground
Had some fear to get around
You can't say what you don't know
Later on won’t work no more
Last time though I hid my tracks
So well I could not get back
Yeah my way was hard to find
Can't sell your soul for peace of mind
Square one, my slate is clear
Rest your head on me my dear
It took a world of trouble, it took a world of tears
It took a long time to get back here
Try so hard to stand alone
Struggle to see past my nose
Always had more dogs than bones
I could never wear those clothes
It's a dark victory
You won and you are so lost
Told her you were satisfied
But it never came across
Square one, my slate is clear
Rest your head on me my dear
It took a world of trouble, it took a world of tears
It took a long time to get back here
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| | I just secured a room in a house down in Sugarhouse and am totally excited about it! There's a nice porch with a couch, a spacious living room and kitchen, and my room is small, but cozy. I've never lived with dudes before, but I've heard good things about these particular ones. It's relatively close to the freeway in case I need to commute for work, too; something I feel wholly unprepared for. Man, searching for social work jobs is stressing me the fuck out. I am not looking forward to finding a whole new social group either, but as well as blind melon and the chili peppers have treated me, it's probably time I be finding some new best friends. | | comments: 4 comments or Leave a comment |
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